Lauren is kind of a Big Dill

February 15, 2018

​             Lauren received this sign from a couple of friends who came to visit.  The sign reads "I am kind of a Big Dill".  She has it hanging on her bed pole.  Sometimes you just need a little humor to get through the day.  Her doctor's have said "it is so true".  
    Today is day 38 and still waiting.  In my mind the clock is ticking, Lauren is strong today and is ready for surgery.  My fear is if we wait for months, will Lauren be strong and ready for such a life changing surgery?  All we can do at this point is pray and put it in God's hands.  I have spoken with so many people about how we have to have faith and stay positive, we are but there are times when I question and I have said it before "WHY".  
              As I am sitting here writing this post, all I can hear is machines beeping non stop.  Most of the time I can ignore it, but tonight I just want to yell "STOP".  It's not Lauren's machines it's the heart monitors in the hallway.  Then it the sirens outside.  We may be on the ninth floor but we can hear them as if we were on the first floor.  
       What comes to mind is an episode from Sex and the City TV show.  One of the girls was in the suburbs and said "she couldn't sleep, it was to quite, she missed the outside noise".  Well, that is not me.  I don't think I could every get used to this.  At home, I have a chime in my front yard and even in the winter I can hear the calming sound of the chimes, they relax me.  I miss that.
      Lauren and I were talking today, to all her friends when she does get the call for her new heart and kidney, she will no longer be putting post up on Facebook.  If you would like to keep up to date with Lauren's progress, please subscribe to my web site and you will automatically receive email alerts when I post an update.
​            Still waiting for the pins to come in, as soon as they come we'll let everyone know.
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